What would you give up for your dreams? Is that everyone and everything or are you fooling yourself? It’s something that the Queen of the Succubi thinks about… often.
Desires – Truths
By MZ and Tera S
She’s nibbling that lip again… oh how that makes my heart long to undress her with my eyes. Good… she can wait… here comes her playful pout… Yes and a wink too… I’m on a roll tonight.
Soon I’m inside and I can see she’s fighting back her need to take me again as she holds onto the door for support. But she knows my beliefs of saving myself till marriage and leads me into the living room. After placing her new rose in the top cubbyhole and making me sit in the big leather chair, I knew something was up. My heart started bounding frantically and my palms began to sweat. Lovingly sitting upon my lap and feeling my growing desire to give in to her, Tera caressed my cheek and kissed me so tenderly that I forgot my anxieties for just a moment. Then she asked me the question I knew was coming… then one I was so afraid to face the truth about. I brush my hand along Tera’s soft face while looking deep into her pleading eyes.
“Listening to you makes my heart sing. Gazing at you, I feel the heat. You excitement on levels I can’t even begin to describe. From you, I feel complete. With you, I feel a powerful connection. Oh I love you more than any dream can image.” My voice trails off and the lump in my throat hardens making it impossible for me to speak at the moment. I look down.
How can I look into those eyes and tell her… that I’m not worth of her… That it would be a crime for a mere mortal like me to pluck a goddess from her perch and away from the millions that need her. How do I tell her I’m afraid… that I’m weak… I feel like she could swallow me whole, overwhelming me completely. Why can’t I let go? That some small part of me just won’t surrender because its needing something first… its waiting for some sign for. How can I bring myself to tell her this… it would break her heart. I just don’t deserve Tera. She’s too precious and too needed.
The front door opens in the distance as the men slowly carry the large sculpture into the house.
Finding the courage at last to attempt telling Tera how unworthy I am, I look back into her eyes and will the lump to let me finish. “But… Right behind you, I see the millions. I see how you are needed so very badly in this world. There is a part of me… a small part of me that’s afraid.. that can’t make sense how a goddess can truly understand what it is like to have insecurities… to truly understand what its like to feel completely powerless to another. So you see, I’m not worthy… I can’t say yes because all I could give you is most of me… the rest of me is still waiting for something… still needing something… a sign or something. What we have is just too good to be true because I can’t live up to what you deserve. It’s a dream… a perfect fantasy. My hope and my prayer is that someday this dream of ours will become a reality. Please forgive my lack of faith… you are my one and only desire.”
And thus the name of this series of RPs becomes clear…